emptiness
i've been living a very routined life.
it's been bugging me that i actually know that i've been living it.
i get up in the morning, not looking forward to it most days recently.
i think i've reached my point when i know what i want in life and now have all that, but my personal contentment is non existent.
i've learned to appreciate things and people and i have around me, i've stopped yearning for things or people that i don't have.
i have everything that i need and yet when i look in the mirror i can't see anything. i stare and i stare and i feel so empty.
i heard from someone wise..."what's the point of having everything you need and success in life and not have your family to share it with"
i think i know what it means now.
i miss my family around me terribly. i miss having my mom nag me, i know she does that cos she cares and it's her job as a mom to nag. hehe
im 26 and im proud to say that i want to be with them again. i wouldn't dismiss the thought of moving near her and my sister anytime soon.
a close friend also said i need someone to love. but i figured i have enough love and blessed to pass it on to my family and friends. i also figured it's my turn to be loved and taken care of.
at the back of my head it's saying... maybe it's time for someone to come in my life and share that much awaited love and respect.
i also thought maybe it's not a personal thing, as in it's not the love of my family or that special someone in my life.. maybe it's about sharing what i have with those who don't.
so i also thought of doing some community volunteer work. i thought of going to soup kitchens on a weeknight and help serve to the homeless.
maybe that will fill the gap that's missing in my heart.
what do you do when you feel empty?